Loosing my mind just to find a place in your mind.

Thursday, June 01, 2006

i closed my eyes
i saw you in my illusions
you told me that you love me
you told me that you care.
but when ever i need you. u were never there
playing with my feeling. pulling in and out
blowing hot and cold.
sorry but i still love you.
i gave away my heart
but in retrun shattered apart.
leaving me with the feelings of betrayal and being forgotten
everydae waking up in emptiness knowing that you will not say
those three words again.
vomitting those emotions of mine to empty pesimistic thoughts.
to stop me from crying by those hurtful wrds
promises are all faked up lies.
being so naive i believed every word you said.
wounded by your very hands,
bleeding infront of the broken mirror.
the pain that racked my body.
and doubts tht filled my heart
wanting you to gold my hands forever.
i know i am living in denial.
im sorry. but i cant.

-nics- 1 june 06
i love u i really do.

YAs reality is crashing to the floor.

Paint a portrait of you & I-;

~~You get older & blame becomes to shame.~~
Would you still love me if i was spastic, crazy, mad or...whatever?

I love starbucks with bestfriends. i love my family, bestfriends, friends & i love my boyfriend.

I'd love to experience everything in life. Try whatever seems crazily fun or stupid.

I don't live life to the fullest sometimes but to me, life seems like a movie. Everything happens so fast, ends so fast but at the same time, there're so many people in life that you treasure & never want to leave. i've never been perfect in my life. never once. i've never done anything exceptionally good however, i've got the perfect friends in life. i've got a beautiful boyfriend & i thank God for everything i've came pass.

I can be very crude, retarded & stupid at times.

I'm a mean bitch, whore, cunt whatever you want to call me if you make my blood boil. I wouldn't acknowledge you on the streets if you did something to insult my friends & i. Infact, i'll probably hate you for life for what you did. Yes, very much HATE.

Chains;

Tender Words-;