Loosing my mind just to find a place in your mind.

Sunday, June 18, 2006

i sat by the fone every night hoping that you will at least give me a call.
Every night you kept my hopes high, but in the end it is just an empty dream.
There will not be a call not even an sms.
I cried myself to sleep, knowing that you will not comfort me, i comforted myself.
Maybe i just never treasured those days.
Till when you walked away and walked out of my life, those confusions of my life came up again, questioning my thoughs and faith.
I know it is over and you lied. It is just so hard for me to accept it, so hard to see my love turning into a disaster and too hard to see those kisses turning into nightmares.
When i turn myself into the mirrior broken reflectionis all i see, those imperfecetion of me.
The death words written there.
I really missed you so much.
Still remembering every word you said, every kiss you gave.
You blured my vision with your love.
But when you finally left, all that which was left was broken pieces of me.
I can't get those bloody stains off my wall And all i am wishing for, is for life to be as easy as ABC and 123
-nics
#180606

YAs reality is crashing to the floor.

Paint a portrait of you & I-;

~~You get older & blame becomes to shame.~~
Would you still love me if i was spastic, crazy, mad or...whatever?

I love starbucks with bestfriends. i love my family, bestfriends, friends & i love my boyfriend.

I'd love to experience everything in life. Try whatever seems crazily fun or stupid.

I don't live life to the fullest sometimes but to me, life seems like a movie. Everything happens so fast, ends so fast but at the same time, there're so many people in life that you treasure & never want to leave. i've never been perfect in my life. never once. i've never done anything exceptionally good however, i've got the perfect friends in life. i've got a beautiful boyfriend & i thank God for everything i've came pass.

I can be very crude, retarded & stupid at times.

I'm a mean bitch, whore, cunt whatever you want to call me if you make my blood boil. I wouldn't acknowledge you on the streets if you did something to insult my friends & i. Infact, i'll probably hate you for life for what you did. Yes, very much HATE.

Chains;

Tender Words-;