Loosing my mind just to find a place in your mind.

Wednesday, June 14, 2006

i tried to keep myself occupied
just to stop thinking of you.
but nomatter how i try the misery of mine will not go
away.
i forced every word of mine out of my mouth.
every smile out of of my face.
but nothing changes the confusion that overwhelms
my body.
those depressed feelings that runs through my mind
just stays there to hurt me more.
leaving me in that forest half way through the journey
letting me get lost and yet you dont care
i have never believed that you actually know
how much i was hurt and you just walked passed me
i know that there will not be a forever
therefore i will not long for much
those lies that you told me
i will not give dam
i am sorry but i have to let go of this
the fucking pain that racks my heart
-nics.
14 june o6

YAs reality is crashing to the floor.

Paint a portrait of you & I-;

~~You get older & blame becomes to shame.~~
Would you still love me if i was spastic, crazy, mad or...whatever?

I love starbucks with bestfriends. i love my family, bestfriends, friends & i love my boyfriend.

I'd love to experience everything in life. Try whatever seems crazily fun or stupid.

I don't live life to the fullest sometimes but to me, life seems like a movie. Everything happens so fast, ends so fast but at the same time, there're so many people in life that you treasure & never want to leave. i've never been perfect in my life. never once. i've never done anything exceptionally good however, i've got the perfect friends in life. i've got a beautiful boyfriend & i thank God for everything i've came pass.

I can be very crude, retarded & stupid at times.

I'm a mean bitch, whore, cunt whatever you want to call me if you make my blood boil. I wouldn't acknowledge you on the streets if you did something to insult my friends & i. Infact, i'll probably hate you for life for what you did. Yes, very much HATE.

Chains;

Tender Words-;