Loosing my mind just to find a place in your mind.
Monday, November 20, 2006



ever felt that every thing's against you & all...


i cant take it anymore. yes, dad said sorry but mum ... she just used those words and told me i was never sorry & i have never loved my family. no... i may not have shown that i love my family in a very obvious way... but inside i know i love dem.


mum always condemn & say i've never cared for anyone of them... i really don't know what i can do. i am never those type of people who can show someone i love in a very obvious manner. so yeah... i really dnt know what I'm supposed to do.


mum nagged at me just now... & i feel so dam fucking lousy again... if there's something that can change everything i am ... even if takes my life, i will... nothing seems to make her see that i love my family. yes... I've disappointed you all many many times... & here i am trying to show you that i am capable of doing something better but ... the way you condemned me made me feel as if i am sucha loser that can never work things up ...


i really dont know what i have to do now...

i've decided ...

& im half way giving up myself


silly pig's super duper busy with his sch i guess... ><


& if i ever give up on myself... i'll still love u . i promise.


-nics-
201106.

YAs reality is crashing to the floor.


Paint a portrait of you & I-;


You get older & blame becomes to shame.
Would you still love me if i was spastic, crazy, mad or...whatever?

I love starbucks with bestfriends. i love my family, bestfriends, friends & i love my boyfriend.


I'd love to experience everything in life. Try whatever seems crazily fun or stupid.


I don't live life to the fullest sometimes but to me, life seems like a movie. Everything happens so fast, ends so fast but at the same time, there're so many people in life that you treasure & never want to leave. i've never been perfect in my life. never once. i've never done anything exceptionally good however, i've got the perfect friends in life. i've got a beautiful boyfriend & i thank God for everything i've came pass.


I can be very crude, retarded & stupid at times.

I'm a mean bitch, whore, cunt whatever you want to call me if you make my blood boil. I wouldn't acknowledge you on the streets if you did something to insult my friends & i. Infact, i'll probably hate you for life for what you did. Yes, very much HATE.



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