Loosing my mind just to find a place in your mind.

Wednesday, April 11, 2007

i guess you did a really good job by occupying the whole of my mind for just one second of my time (: ... you got me feeling crummy after that. just like how you get hangovers if you drink too much. you're like alcohol to me coz... you give me after effects. ouch!!

i don't want you to pull me down in life by thinking of you all the time. when i'm having classes, when i'm home, when i'm out etc. i don't want you to be the centre of my world. But, sometimes... i just can't. i have a better aim in life now that you've made me see. yes, nothing will take away the love i have for you & i knw, at the same time, nothing will bring back the love you had for me. it's reality, i knw... i knw... i understand.

you've knocked sense into me after you had that conversation with me. afterall, i conclude that, by not having a conversation with me is better off, you've spoilt that beautiful dream i was still having. i realised, i've gotta move on nomatter how hard i knw it would be. & i've gotta buck up on my studies. Do you know how i'm feeling on the inside? a part of me wants to mvoe on, study hard & tell you i'm able to do it. the other part is pulling me back to the dreams. it's just so ... no one can do two things at one time baby (: . so, what's more important you? or my studies? i'm certain everyone knows the answer.

it's amazing how one sacrifices them self for the one they love. it's "anything for the one i love, including my very own life" kind of entity. sometimes, i really wished that the one i love will love me the way my family loves me. really. Coz, the one i love is already a part of me, why cn't he deal with me the same way my family does? so silly of me to have a thought like this aye? a family r/s is a total diff thing frm some normal r/s you have. perhaps, you'll know how much i love my family now?

someone once told me:" why dwell here where there's many other better people out there?" To me, every r/s is uniquely different & i'm sure.. there'll be foot prints of them left on your heart. why dwell? the reason is something one can never conceive unless they've encountered it.

i met up with nessa darling at parkway & had starbucks as usual ... angela hunny couldn't turn up owing to her art assignment. ><><

it was raining... raining heavy ): so, nessa & i slacked under theblock, talking... till bout quite latee & we decided to go bk (:

i met wolf pig instead of heading home. (: went over to mph coz he needed to get some books & THERE, *laughs out loud* i saw this easter bunny... it says "pull it's tail" =DD with those itchy hands of mine, i pulled... & it vibrated... like vibrated -.- WITH AN EASTER EGG. it was gruesome but, adorable. aww.

we slacked till bout 8 ++ & took a bus home.

i'm so glad. wooosh.

-so how does it really feel like to roll on the floor & have tooth marks on your hands ?

-nics

YAs reality is crashing to the floor.

Paint a portrait of you & I-;

~~You get older & blame becomes to shame.~~
Would you still love me if i was spastic, crazy, mad or...whatever?

I love starbucks with bestfriends. i love my family, bestfriends, friends & i love my boyfriend.

I'd love to experience everything in life. Try whatever seems crazily fun or stupid.

I don't live life to the fullest sometimes but to me, life seems like a movie. Everything happens so fast, ends so fast but at the same time, there're so many people in life that you treasure & never want to leave. i've never been perfect in my life. never once. i've never done anything exceptionally good however, i've got the perfect friends in life. i've got a beautiful boyfriend & i thank God for everything i've came pass.

I can be very crude, retarded & stupid at times.

I'm a mean bitch, whore, cunt whatever you want to call me if you make my blood boil. I wouldn't acknowledge you on the streets if you did something to insult my friends & i. Infact, i'll probably hate you for life for what you did. Yes, very much HATE.

Chains;

Tender Words-;