Loosing my mind just to find a place in your mind.

Wednesday, May 30, 2007

H-E-L-P! *screams*

pirate's the sex & im gonna get all three of the dvds (:<

i couldn't get to sleep last night although i was very drained... it's those thoughts that raised thru my mind & like venom, it just never stops. ohh wells.

ytd was outting with angela hunny & renessa darhling which was a total day of nothing but fun & absurdity. Like there's no order in human life or rather, the universe.

so after two days of continuous fun, today's time to stay in for a good cup of tea followed with a nice book on how to keep your diet ): ,a good warm bath & ... maybe, touch on some paper work that has to be accomplished by the end of june.

CHANGE OF PLANS (: . no more stay-at-home day. i met hazel at parkway after her school since i had to head there to get some books for revision as well =) . we appreantly went crazy coz, it's been ubber long since i've met her & she's leaving for taiwan next monday, nessa darhling will be leaving for penang as well where else, angela hunny would be busy & for nicole, she'll be stuck at home till weekends stumble upon, then, she'll be able to meet b ¬.¬ . wuifrsvkddhjvbkjsdfsa! (gasps for oxygen). okay back to today... mac's fries & bubble tea which lasted hazel till 3.45 was our lunch. & after 3.45, we headed to BK for her meal, not forgetting her homework to-be-done which ended up with an attempt to one qus only, coz... i was exasperating her with fries, lemon tea & a camera *grins* now you'll feasibly know how nicole can bother you with just a lil camera on her hand. what more when she has other stuff? B knws (:< . AH wells, hazel left for tuition & i headed home for dddddinnnnnnner at 5.

while walking home with the mp3 blasted to the highest volume stuck in my ears, b called to ask where was i & if i'll be able to meet him ((: . there, i had plans after dinner! NOT staying home to stare at the computer, television or, eat a few scoops of ice cream BUT heading out again to parkway to meet b. =DDD. Finally, after a few days ): .

so, yeah that's bout today... & ytd.

my paranoid-ness took control over me & i became egocentric... not thinking bout how u'll feel before painting anything into the picture. i know, it's a stupid reason for not letting you go clubbing b, but...that's how i really felt then. like what i've said a moment ago, it's not that i do not trust you but, intermittently, i just dn't trust people there. it isn't predictable & there's not much of a precaution you can take. i don't want to let you down.

im sorry & i'll do whatever to make up for what i've did.

-nics-

Labels: No more next time. I love you too much to ever want to let you down.

YAs reality is crashing to the floor.

Paint a portrait of you & I-;

~~You get older & blame becomes to shame.~~
Would you still love me if i was spastic, crazy, mad or...whatever?

I love starbucks with bestfriends. i love my family, bestfriends, friends & i love my boyfriend.

I'd love to experience everything in life. Try whatever seems crazily fun or stupid.

I don't live life to the fullest sometimes but to me, life seems like a movie. Everything happens so fast, ends so fast but at the same time, there're so many people in life that you treasure & never want to leave. i've never been perfect in my life. never once. i've never done anything exceptionally good however, i've got the perfect friends in life. i've got a beautiful boyfriend & i thank God for everything i've came pass.

I can be very crude, retarded & stupid at times.

I'm a mean bitch, whore, cunt whatever you want to call me if you make my blood boil. I wouldn't acknowledge you on the streets if you did something to insult my friends & i. Infact, i'll probably hate you for life for what you did. Yes, very much HATE.

Chains;

Tender Words-;