Loosing my mind just to find a place in your mind.

Tuesday, May 15, 2007

i realised, no matter howdaddy & mummy tries to shape me, it'll never change the fact that i'm soft hearted & tears easily.

there's something up my heart & i guess, i couldn't forgive myself for what i did.

You’re the one who has made me feel so special all of my life. I’m sorry for what happened today…I’ve assert my fury on you, making a huge fuss over such a small matter which wasn’t even your blunder at all. I guess, I was being too insensitive when I threw my temper & refused to speak to you after what you’ve told me. the awkward silence that sat in between us made me realize how much I’ve disappointed you. I know it was a total turn off for you but that hasn’t refrain you from making me feel better. I saw the way, you tried, so hard, to make me smile & stop me from answering “I don’t know” every time you asked me a question. I’m sorry I’ve made you feel that way just now… i really don’t mean anything. Please… don’t take it to heart )):

It was just moments of folly which made me act that way…

You know, how much I love you.

-nics-

YAs reality is crashing to the floor.

Paint a portrait of you & I-;

~~You get older & blame becomes to shame.~~
Would you still love me if i was spastic, crazy, mad or...whatever?

I love starbucks with bestfriends. i love my family, bestfriends, friends & i love my boyfriend.

I'd love to experience everything in life. Try whatever seems crazily fun or stupid.

I don't live life to the fullest sometimes but to me, life seems like a movie. Everything happens so fast, ends so fast but at the same time, there're so many people in life that you treasure & never want to leave. i've never been perfect in my life. never once. i've never done anything exceptionally good however, i've got the perfect friends in life. i've got a beautiful boyfriend & i thank God for everything i've came pass.

I can be very crude, retarded & stupid at times.

I'm a mean bitch, whore, cunt whatever you want to call me if you make my blood boil. I wouldn't acknowledge you on the streets if you did something to insult my friends & i. Infact, i'll probably hate you for life for what you did. Yes, very much HATE.

Chains;

Tender Words-;