Monday, May 07, 2007 This sucks. what's the use of mugging so hard when nothing i mugged came out? geography was so difficult, i stared at my paper for ten mintues once the examiner told all of us we can start our paper. i wasted a total of 20 mins reading the qus, scratching my head, trying to figure out what they want from me. it took me the whole sunday to study this... & all i get was.. .a blank stare on my paper. i managed to write at least a lil coz, i know i'll be able to score for some of it . meanders, river, cost. break water... whatever. i tried so hard, i even drew out a diagram to explain everything. those people sitting beside me gave me so much tension ... they were scribbling endlessly & i was just staring at my fool scape thinking what else could i write. this look like as if i'm writing an essay for something... ):... i was so freaking worried, & all i could tell myself on the inside was... nicole, why? why? WHY ?, what &... how.
i was fiddling my pens, and ruler like as if the more i fiddle with it, the answer will just pop out of no where. nah, it didn't work... i'm glad i studied geo instead of lit! i applied what i learnt in class & what i've read thru the book to hope that i'll get quite some marks inorder to pass. but to think again, what're the possibilities that i'll pass
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when the paper was finally over, everyone looked at each other...shake their heads & commenting on " this paper's difficult... i dnt know what's bay shore, headland... spit & tombolos." so much of studying eh nicole.
For literature, i managed to make full use of the four fool scape papers given to me... it;s all filled with words & i wouldn't say that it was all that difficult. i'm able to understand what they want from me, how the story goes yadayda. surprisingly, i'm able to write alot alot, for my unseen prose.
to admit what i don't want to admit, lots of things were racing through my mind while i was tackling all this exam qus... i wanted to give up on my geo, scribble a few words & sleep through that paper. but something stopped me, the thought of you & all that you've told me ran past my mind. & ... it kept me awake to be able to go on. lit paper two's tmr, bio & ss is next & ... i dnt know how to mug for those two ... ss i did listen in class, bio as well , but... i'm so scared, i dnt knw what qus am i gonna be tested on. there's still art that's dued on friday & i still have so many skecthes to be done, colour scheme & thumbnails. throw me a pillow & i'll scream into it =D!
vrinda says i'm thinking too much, i've studied till i've gone crazy & so, did bryan . poofs.... yes, this is the first time i'm mugging so hard for my mind years... i guess i'll have to cope with this till next yr when i take my o lvls. ):
i feel so, empty on the inside now, too much of studying makes you go crazy & i dnt wana whine bout having to study so much, so stress, just like those smarty pants who mocked us! we know we ain't as smart but, we're willing to try.
when're you gonna paint your rooooom!
-nics-
YAs reality is crashing to the floor.
I love starbucks with bestfriends.
i love my family, bestfriends, friends & i love my boyfriend.
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I'm a mean bitch, whore, cunt whatever you want to call me if you make my blood boil.
I wouldn't acknowledge you on the streets if you did something to insult my friends & i. Infact, i'll probably hate you for life for what you did. Yes, very much HATE.