It's sooooo early it the morning. & the two pigs of mine are still soundly asleep at home. i wish i could disturb you >=] .

the reason to me not being able to sleep anymore is coz, feasibly i had the worst nightmare ever followed by the noise made by my both sisters which got me awaken in this early morning filtered with fresh sweetness in the sky. ahhhhhh. mum's going to bring them out for a movie which i'll be watching this afternoon with angela & nessa. sooo, hopefully i can get a little more sleep while they're out before awawkening at ten/ eleven to phone up each other to plan bout today. my eye lids are wide opened & i'm not yawning ... i guess, i 'll find difficulties trying to sleep )): . ohh wells. Holidays are boring me out, there's nothing much to do in singapore anway. sometimes, you'll be able to find me at home rotting OR, places everyone's familiar with. i might go to the same place for a few days straight. how pathetic. But, it's the people you are with that makes you happy ain't it. not the plaaaaaace *shakes head*

After a long search for the right book to spend my holiday with or rather, spend my few days with coz... i've already read half the book , i finally found a nice book to settle dwn with. it' beautifully bittersweet (: .

i do not think i'll be able to fall asleep on my bed again so, i'm spending my time blogging.

sometimes, i find life a big joke when everything that was lay right infront of your eyes slolwy fades away & turn into an ugly picture of nothing. when something make no sense at all, you start asking yourself why & where have they gone to. Things that seemed so strong, seemed to be there no matter what suddenly disappears into thin air turning it into pixie dust. Was it ever meant that way? having so very high hopes of accomplishing stuff but when having it already on your hands it slowly turns into ashes of what seems to be square one. Was it taken away or, did you just never have a good hold of it letting it have the chance to slip away every now & then, eventually... you're left with nothing. nothing at all. that's when you regret. ain't it. Probably the reason of loosing such stuff is coz you just never have a good hold of it. it's amazing what life brings you through coz, by the end of the day... it'll either make you a stronger person or, a weaker person.

Ever done something you wanted to do so eagerly but half way through the hardship, the only option left was "give up"? But, when you made that choice to give up, not far from where you're... there's a better option. ignoring all those, foolishly i gave up on things i wanted to do telling myself, "oh, there's always a next time" how many of a next time will there be? there isn't many of a next time you can apply to in certain type of things in life. & there goes, hopes that people have for me. there, it made me realise difficulties won't stay there as long as you have the courage to fight it through.

i don't know how is Dad's business going but... yeah.

mama loves you & so do we. i'm sorry if we don't talk as often. but, you knw you've got my support, always.