I held it in me the whole night, the whole morning till when i struggled up to class, threw my bag on the chair & started telling hunny what was on my mind. i thougt i'll be able to hold it as well but, not for long, everything just came out simply coz i ain't able to hold it anymore. That feeling inside was ardous. hunny hugged me, told me everything's gonna be alright all i have to do is wait. It goes this way all the time. we think differently & sometimes we tend to have disagreements. I felt the silence around me & sarah told me all eyes were on me. She herself was shocked to see what was going on with me early in the morning. i'm having a monster look today. i don't look well. Hunny have always made me feel alot better whenever i'm not doing very well. Of course, she made me feel alot alot better with her hugs & a note... i gave her back an essay-like reply. there were so many things going through my mind which i had to say it out to make myself feel better. Friends have all asked me if i was okay & they comforted me in one way or another. Thanks all esp to hunny. sometimes i tried so hard i make myself feel tired & lousy just for you. . too flustered & blinded with the emotions i hide myself in.

& for the first time, i had a scolding from bryan coz he thinks i'm going overboard. i'm not that nicole he knew. well, nicole sometimes dnt act like te nicole you know, bryan. I'm half way to insanity & you pulled me out of it. you woke me up from everything that i was thinking. i admit that there was a point of time today where i thought too much. sometimes, it goes that way... i'm worried. i'm being ludicrous i know. Gravity isn't strong enough to pull me back coz my mindds running away from my head.

i'm like a psycho i look at my cell every five minutes to see if there's a msg ...not frm anyone else but you.

-nicole.