I was too bored in class i started to disturb my partner. (:
yadayayda!

Lucky things never come in pairs while those unlucky hings comein strings...Apart from b & i, some closed onse knows what's going on with me lately & ofcourse they know how i'm feeling...well, not all that i'm feeling but just a lil of it. it's true that you wouldn't know what it feels like till you yourself had experienced it. I've always told those who ere feeling worried to calm themselves down & not think bout the problem for the time being. Easy said, doing it is another thing. Whenever you're worried, depressed yaadayada, you try not to think bout it but, sometimes you can't help it coz everything reminds you of what's going through your mind. even the slightest thing wil lremind you of something ain't it?

Today was waking up with a snap of my fingers. I didn't drag any further cpo i wanted to get over & down with today. Friday (: ... finally. Although i wasn't really keen to attend school, there was no good reasons to skip it. The only reason is: today's schedule sucks. big time!. nevertheless, i had no excuse so, i asked mum to drop me to sch to start the day off. I was hoping that the day will get better with every minute that's nearing to the end of the day(sch day) since i'll be spending some time either along or with my mum just to take everything out of my head for a while cz lately, i've been doing too much thinking...too much that my hair's starting to fall off wtf. I don' want to be a fucking monk at the age of... i don't know... NOW?! ): pssft. i'm loosing appetite in whatever food o see right infront of my eyes but, what excites me is tmr's (((: . it's the launch of potter's last bookzzxz! *cheers with big big eyes & wide wide smile*

okay... back to the day. This post is going to be a bore since i'm gnawed with stuff. i can't seem to find a way that'll diminish how i'm feeling. *grumbles* The very first period of the day was ex followed by PE. it's crazy... i swear. it's like you have one an a half hours of work out ... not those work out you do in primary sch. it's PE whereby you have to run like a mad person till you pant & sweat & get stinky....really really STINKY! It's ridiculous... very very very very. Nevermind bout that since it's over already. I was okay with this 90 mins work out session for once; today. i worked out...ran like a maddy just to feel better & surprisingly after the 90 mins, i felt better than how i felt this morning in my mummy's car. Running for such a period of time was tiring ... with that, it left me restless for the rest of the day.

Everything taught by the teacher didn't go into my mind... those chattering & murmuring of the class did not distract me from my deep thoughts of stupid nothings. It's amazing how naive i can get when it comes to my own imaginations. (:

Sometimes i'd wish for somone to shake me out of the dream world yet sometimes i just wana stay there. how contradicting?

Do you believe that at times, physical pain will be able to heal your emotional pain? coz, i do. it works. I'm gonna get a tat as soon as i can think of a design that represents my family & my two best friends yadayayda. i discussed it with mum, she was okay with it... &, obviously i'm not getting it now but, ltr part in life. well yeah...

I spent too much today... yet i just announced myself broke ytd. it wasn't my fault that the agnes b shirt caught my eyes right there when i walked into the shop *grins* Mum was there so, she agreed on getting it for me since she got herself something else. whee.

that's for today.

B, i love you. & i mean those three words when i tell you this.

-nics-