Loosing my mind just to find a place in your mind.

Monday, August 20, 2007

Let's get drunk.

i feel very crummy today & have been falling asleep constantly during lessons esp bio. I was supposed to have a very good night's sleep yesterday since i was really tired But, hell i received a call & that call sent shiver down my spines. oh, no ... not prank calls it's frm my neighbour who stays opp my condo *waves*. our conversation has smth to do with catching up but, as our convo went on & on, it came to a topic that has smth to do with things frm the other world. Since it's the seven mth, mum has been telling me to take precautions &, yadayada has been nagging bout it. I know... it sounds very superstitious ...but it's always better to be save than to be sorry aight (: ?

So, i was forced to hang up the phone since my batt was running out. i'd like to talk more bout smth else... not that): . ayee. &, i layed on the bed with both eyes opened thinking bout that part of our convo. super... the feeling, of course, was uneasy... & i felt very suffocated under my blanket. sucks.

i tried falling asleep but, i cnt... & i ended up praying instead. i wouldn't want that feeling to come back anymore.

I wanted B so badly but, the best thing is that my cell & home phone's batt died. was very reluctant to drag my body into the darkness outside of my room to get someone to talk to me. lesson learnt, ALWAYS CHARGE PHONE'S.

I was then left with no other option but to lay in bed like some fucking idiot with those big tired eyes opened attempting to push all those disgusting thoughts away from my mind, brain, IMAGINATION!

i managed to get a lil sleep when my lil sis woke up ... i asked her to talk to me for a while so i'll at least know that i'm not alone. she was so sweet to agree on that...her lil hands held mine & in merely ten mintues, she fell asleep. so, again, i was left awake alone physically but, with her hands holding mine, i felt so much better.

That totally explains those dark eye circles & constant sleepings in class.

today, i managed to actually keep myself away from cafeteria's food so proud. & i din eat alot for dinner either (: . but seriously, diet-ing is killing me. everyone's eating so fucking much yet you yourself tell yourself you can eat but, just a lil =/ . ah well, no pain no gain (: ...

Tmr's geo paper yet my text is right beside me untouched... i'm really lazy to study for it thou coz, it's the last paper... nobody has the mood to actually sit down to revise it. still, i have to pass it so i'll pass my humans as well.

YAs reality is crashing to the floor.

Paint a portrait of you & I-;

~~You get older & blame becomes to shame.~~
Would you still love me if i was spastic, crazy, mad or...whatever?

I love starbucks with bestfriends. i love my family, bestfriends, friends & i love my boyfriend.

I'd love to experience everything in life. Try whatever seems crazily fun or stupid.

I don't live life to the fullest sometimes but to me, life seems like a movie. Everything happens so fast, ends so fast but at the same time, there're so many people in life that you treasure & never want to leave. i've never been perfect in my life. never once. i've never done anything exceptionally good however, i've got the perfect friends in life. i've got a beautiful boyfriend & i thank God for everything i've came pass.

I can be very crude, retarded & stupid at times.

I'm a mean bitch, whore, cunt whatever you want to call me if you make my blood boil. I wouldn't acknowledge you on the streets if you did something to insult my friends & i. Infact, i'll probably hate you for life for what you did. Yes, very much HATE.

Chains;

Tender Words-;