when you tell me this world is too cruel, i'm sure there're times when the it isn't .... it's the way you look at things & it's the way you want to face it. Tell me you don't have time coz you haven't been keeping track of it. Tell me you've lost coz, all along, you haven't realise. & when you did, you're too late... just by a min. It's not fairy tale whereby cinderella lives happily ever after. Not fairy Godmother when she appears there right infront of your sulking body & wave her wand, meanwhile telling you that everything's gonna be alright coz her fairy dust will make everything seem fine. It's of no use to sit by that well, have dreams & eventually have someone else to shatter it for you. "It's so selfish to use that word I" Mum has always told me that, finally, i've understood wha she has been proving to me. Funny isn't it when soneone tries to tell you smth yet you take a whole lo of time to figure everythign out & when you did, you'll feel so stupid. (: . life... you go with the flow & not life goes with your flow.

i've never given up on myself thou i really wanted to. Afterall, it's not worth it to see myself give up on myself when i see those around me supporting me all along. When they have so much faith in you, telling you tht you're wonderful & you could do it... it brings me to an indecision coz, thou i knw how they've supported me, the inside of me tell me that there're things i cant achieve nomatter how much they tell me i can do it. i believe that my dad & mum doesn't knw everything bout this daughter they've got here. i twist & turn so much they get by with it, give in & eventually when i go out to see this world, it's so different frm mama & papa & family. Nobody loves you like how your family loves you. Although at times i feel that this home is just a shelter for me coz of dad & mum who isn't always there, i knw that... they're trying hard to keep this family strong & going. Mama cries i know ... over daddy when he doesn't know & sometimes, doesn't even care.

Thou i scribbled thru my chi compo which i had no idea on that topic, i managed to gt a grade i din expect.