So, the words came crashing into those ears which made it irresistable to use both hands, cover those ears & puch away that voice inside, those tears just couldn't be fought away. I could not help but wonder what's gonna come next in life, what's gonna happen & what do i have to go through again. sometimes, i'd really want to know, want to show but at the same time, i ain't sure if i;m ready to see/ know what's next in this roller coaster ride. i've been having too much of those thoughts that it's affecting my moods & my sleeping time. It's brain wrecking to feel that way. You say i think too much, you say i worry too much. Why don't you say you've been in my shoes for 5 minutes & you know how i'm feeling now? I don't want to let anyone see me break those glass cups i've been taking care of. i feel so unexplainable. Honestly, i beleive that you'll be there with me to pull through whatever may come. It's really nice to know all that but being there doesn't mean you'll also be fighting that battle for me... thou you're there, i still gotta fight that battle in the battle field all by myself. I'm sorry if i ever let you down, just be there & never give up on me coz one day i'll win & that's a promise to you. I'm sorry i ain't like them.

It's the first day of a new term, it's bad enough. i'm sick & sleepy. all i could concentrate on was how to get more sleep & the constant glances i stole from my cell to see if there was any reply. No? no... Everyone was sleeing still when half of my sch day was already gone. To be frank, i'm not ready for my EOY or O lvl coursework paper. i'm tired & all i want is jsut to lay there, reflect what happened all these years in this life.

I love bee gee's version of first of may but, i couldn't find the full song, so... i had to put this.. olivia's one. I've been listening to bee gee's since 4 (:

i miss you so much.