Tmr's queensway with best friends. absolute love.

& then, i, myself sat there on the chair asking God what was it that i never saw through. got so engulfed with whatever that was running through that i barely listened to my teacher teaching. nothing went into my head & i was in a daze during my chinese paper. Hunny saw through those teary eyes, went over & hugged me, told me everything was going to be fine & nothing was going to bring me down coz i have so many people supporting me through this run. I love you all, i feel so much better than yesterday when those blades did some murdering to my cells, brain cells. Bryan, thanks for asking me to wear his shoes. i could see clearier.

School was a lil boring today but i had a great time talking to those who were a lil troubled with things similar to mine & i realised we had the same conclusion & it had made me a bit more stronger than ytd. i realised every thing we encounter in life, there'll be problems but it doesn't matter coz at the end of the day, it all just makes us stronger than ever. we surronded each other, told each other we love each other... that's more than enough. We sat there, talked bout everything asked what have we done wrong to have them to condem us in such a way. we always try to find reasons to convience ourselves that they did the right thing no matter how much they've done wrong. we always try to protect them & tell ourselves" oh maybe i just don't understand."It's so ironic but it makes us feel better doesn't it? no matter how much of stuff we think they've done wrongly, we always try to find reasons to stand on their side & admit that we played a part being wrong. we try our best to explain it out but they just never hear & however much of pain we're carrying inside, we tell them we're fine & we love them very much. yes, that's it. we love them very much. They do care but, sometimes they just showed it in the wrong way.

after everything, all those talks, i asked myself what i really wanted ... for the time being, it'll be for him to listen to my explainations & talk to me nicely after ytd's.