Loosing my mind just to find a place in your mind.

Sunday, October 28, 2007

It feels good getting drunk, it feels good to scream, shout & jump around, it feels good to get carried away from everything that's bothering you, it feels good to feel good.

The burning sensation given from alcohol starts after much intake of alcohol & not long after, i could feel my heart, under the influence of emotion & excitement throb rapidly engulfing me from my surroundings. Nothing beats the feeling alcohol gave me... somehow, it allows me to forget every part of rocky paths i've been through in life. However, the after effect hasn't really came to my admiration.

Sending me home + calling baby up to inform him bout me being drunk was done by ange & mel (thanks a million) while nessa had to cool herself down at the playground in order to head home. I could remember little detail of yesterday night's happening especially the question" how my clothes had the chance to meet the floor when i could recall having them on before i went to bed." It's ... unexplainable.

After much of hesitation ... i finally took the courage to do something i've always wanted to do. i don't do sorry for people like you: For people who pester me for no right reasons, for people who lies to others, for people who bitches bout their very own best friends & of course, for people who cheats in life's game. I hate you & i mean every word i say. I could be a bitch to do much more other mean stuff than showing you my finger. however, i have no intentions of wasting time on such idiots. At least, every single thing that i've done in life, i'm able to face myself, face others. What bout you? can yoou face your girlfriend or your ex girlfriend, or even, your best friend on the things that you've said? Maybe, maybe (:

YAs reality is crashing to the floor.

Paint a portrait of you & I-;

~~You get older & blame becomes to shame.~~
Would you still love me if i was spastic, crazy, mad or...whatever?

I love starbucks with bestfriends. i love my family, bestfriends, friends & i love my boyfriend.

I'd love to experience everything in life. Try whatever seems crazily fun or stupid.

I don't live life to the fullest sometimes but to me, life seems like a movie. Everything happens so fast, ends so fast but at the same time, there're so many people in life that you treasure & never want to leave. i've never been perfect in my life. never once. i've never done anything exceptionally good however, i've got the perfect friends in life. i've got a beautiful boyfriend & i thank God for everything i've came pass.

I can be very crude, retarded & stupid at times.

I'm a mean bitch, whore, cunt whatever you want to call me if you make my blood boil. I wouldn't acknowledge you on the streets if you did something to insult my friends & i. Infact, i'll probably hate you for life for what you did. Yes, very much HATE.

Chains;

Tender Words-;