Loosing my mind just to find a place in your mind.

Wednesday, October 31, 2007

Who imagined structured lessons as such long torturous days? It's the 3rd day of lessons & i honestly admit that i've never never never enjoyed a bit of it excluding the free periods, of course. I've promised to study hard however, there's no reason for 7 consecutive days of extra long subject periods. For the past few days, it's been a little annoying with early assemblies & stupid sch rules that i had no mood to absorb shit the teacher mentioned in class. dammit it's structured lessons, not normal lessons & i seriously think that it's been a lil too much to handle when everyone's enjoying their holidays yet there's a scheduled timing for sch frm 7.30-1.15 for us reasoning to what the sch mentioned :

"if you dnt attend sch, yu'll have to make up for it nxt year."

wtf. What's the use of Naming it structured lessons when it's all scheduled to normal sch timing except for the longer subject periods &, of course, releasing the students an hour earlier than normal schedules. I don't understand...

So, for the past two days, despite the constant murmurings of "don't slp in class" , i slept right there coz, i couldn't take it. It's boring, tiring & disgusting. Adding on to the quietness of my cell, there was absolute nothing to keep me awake. It's been a lil too much to withstand. Today was exceptional ... i listened in class. since these few days have't been much of excitement, 'm having the thought of missing sch for a day or two..that's nt really for me to decide.

Then, i asked myself what was all this for. why have i been so bothered with unnecessary stuff lately... It's been a lil more than i can stand but i'm coping with every single bit of it. I don't need you as a friend, don't ever try getting near me through someone else. For once, put yourself before your ego, do not always think that people enjoy being your friend. Think bout it, if your best friend knows your shit, he'll be better off without you. so, stop it... just stop it. I don't want you as a friend coz of the way you've behaved towards my friend & i. who needs to shake your hand when you pretend you're such a classy being that you couldn't much be bothered with the one shaking your hand.

Rmb what i've said? secrets can never be secrets till the end of time. It's only the matter of time till it all gets revealed to the world. So there, it's to the end of your chapter & finally, after all those shit you got yourself into, i saw the other side of you. liar liar pants on fire. Your chapter ended few days back i just didn't have the time to list the reason being. Don't make me do it or else, i'll phone singtel up right away tmr.

Phone seems a lil quieter these days & Never thought a shoe could bring back past memories of childhood.

Labels: I feel a lil depressed...do you feel it too?

YAs reality is crashing to the floor.

Paint a portrait of you & I-;

~~You get older & blame becomes to shame.~~
Would you still love me if i was spastic, crazy, mad or...whatever?

I love starbucks with bestfriends. i love my family, bestfriends, friends & i love my boyfriend.

I'd love to experience everything in life. Try whatever seems crazily fun or stupid.

I don't live life to the fullest sometimes but to me, life seems like a movie. Everything happens so fast, ends so fast but at the same time, there're so many people in life that you treasure & never want to leave. i've never been perfect in my life. never once. i've never done anything exceptionally good however, i've got the perfect friends in life. i've got a beautiful boyfriend & i thank God for everything i've came pass.

I can be very crude, retarded & stupid at times.

I'm a mean bitch, whore, cunt whatever you want to call me if you make my blood boil. I wouldn't acknowledge you on the streets if you did something to insult my friends & i. Infact, i'll probably hate you for life for what you did. Yes, very much HATE.

Chains;

Tender Words-;