Tell me who'll give up that fucking chance of being right infront just coz you passed out? Not me... i went back into the very front row to mosh (:

My body's aching from all those moshing yet i love it. (: You can never imagine how packed the stadium was + how LP's fans fucking moshed. Of course, nothing beats it more than having the best people with me. i wished you were there to see those pretty sights but, what a waste. huh?

After LP started for a while, the crowd right infront of the stage moshed like no one's business... &, of course i did as well but, for a second, i couldn't breathe & i shouted at the guy beside me" ehhhhhh!!! i cant breath... i cant bbbbbbbreathhe! *screams*." Ange was startled & she asked if i was okay,if i was okay but... i had no breath to talk. the guy beside & infront was nice enough to carry me up for air & i got carried to the side & stuff...Then, i got back into concious state & decided to go back to mosh... hell, it's 150 & im not going to waste it (: ... so, i did, went right from the back, pushed my way thru & got myself back to where i was but, i never ended up with ange & nessa again. i ended up with the ang mohs who pushed & rubbed against me till my shirt was as wet as it was just taken out of a basin of water. Ange & nessa knows how the crowd was...; so moshable... your hand can get stuck in between people's body & you can even feel the guy rubbing themselves onto you. that was irrelevant but, it was damn moshable! Pushing me away & Faint reminded me of you & i cried to it, it was pretty. really.

Someone elbowed my breasts & it fucking hurts... He/she elbowed like there's no fucking tmr... some stepped on me(understandable)..Some rested their hands on my shoulders...Rubbed against me, & some beside/behind me grinded at me. But, the whole point is enjoying yourself ain't it :D.

I got home with a drenched T-shirt & a Just-out-of-bathroom hair style. I moshed, moshed like a fucking whore. Nothing stopped myself from moshing... not even passing out (: ... yeah, it was that awesome. so fucking-ly awesome that you can scream your lungs out just for them.

Passed out for awhile but got back to the consious state & went back to mosh. oh, shit... you've gotta see the face of everyone's. It's amazing! everything was great except for those asses who grinded at me.

I love that part where chester looked at... me... okay my direction. fucking cuteeeeeeee &&&, pheonix waved at meeeeeeeeeeeee!! I was waving & he waved back *contented look* i enjoyed myself. i really really enjoyed myself. I've got a taste of the water they drank. I was this -------------- close to getting the drum sticks they threw off the stage but, i missed it. I had their gatorate , i drank it. MUAHAHAH.

I woke up with body aches which was worth i for once... not those body aches you get from running but body aches which you get from moshing right infront of LP (: . different feeling!

Had no mood to eat coz i still want to mosh & i was singing their songs for the whole morning. My very first meal would probably be dinner so.. yeah.

Had you on my mind in the morning, had it in the afternoon & now. It's a lil more than i can stand; i guess you know how i feel. Spilt it out to you, all of it. I guess i did the right thing... i'm tired of wearing a mask, i'm tired of acting... coz, i can only wear a mask for a period of time till everything revelas itself. to come to think of that, why am i suffering when i could simply spill it out. I've never regreted any step i took but, i just miss you.