Loosing my mind just to find a place in your mind.

Saturday, December 15, 2007

i'm going crazy, nessa kows why. To be honest, this week has been a lil draining & i've been tearing alot. i sleep at 2/3 am & wake up at 7 in the morning, i haven't been happy the whole week, grumpy moodswings adds on to it. i did not cry for any other reasons but, this week was grandad's grave & i couldn't help it. i guess, we never get over smth. we get used to it. oh god.

I hate it when it gets emotional & stuff at the grave. I took the risk to smudge my mascara & of course, cry infront of my whole family. I did a great job smudging my mascara. that sounds a bit too .... irrelevant but, yeah. so, many things have been going through my mind. Some are the past & the others are the future. Calvin dropped by my mind ytd night before i went to bed &, i noiced, nothing hurts anymore. cheers.

Lately, my latest craze is... (nessa knows) =BBBBB! . But, i'm just unsure of everything... ohh well.

i'm invading my cousin's again & .... the list of people online are pretty pathetic.

Birthday's coming & i wouldn't be celebrating it with daddy. always the case i suppose..

i miss everyone.

YAs reality is crashing to the floor.

Paint a portrait of you & I-;

~~You get older & blame becomes to shame.~~
Would you still love me if i was spastic, crazy, mad or...whatever?

I love starbucks with bestfriends. i love my family, bestfriends, friends & i love my boyfriend.

I'd love to experience everything in life. Try whatever seems crazily fun or stupid.

I don't live life to the fullest sometimes but to me, life seems like a movie. Everything happens so fast, ends so fast but at the same time, there're so many people in life that you treasure & never want to leave. i've never been perfect in my life. never once. i've never done anything exceptionally good however, i've got the perfect friends in life. i've got a beautiful boyfriend & i thank God for everything i've came pass.

I can be very crude, retarded & stupid at times.

I'm a mean bitch, whore, cunt whatever you want to call me if you make my blood boil. I wouldn't acknowledge you on the streets if you did something to insult my friends & i. Infact, i'll probably hate you for life for what you did. Yes, very much HATE.

Chains;

Tender Words-;