Loosing my mind just to find a place in your mind.

Wednesday, January 23, 2008

"your nightmare has just began" ouh, eff.

A few sticks could make the day better i swear. i have to admit that i'm not fully recovered from ytd's but, i guess, i did a good job by not sleeping in class today. The most important thing i had to add to my to do list is to lose me weight till i get the weight i am happy with. I'm fine with my size but i just dnt like those numbers. It sucks & you dnt knw how much it bothers a girl (: ... that's why i always hear my mum complaining that she's growing side ways when she herself is skinnier than me. wtf(?) .

I did not make full use of my ytd coz i slept my day away. I have a summary to be done & to be passed up on monday so, i'm going to wait for friday to come before i do it. i realised i need tuition for chemistry coz, somehow i dn't understand the stupid thing that is going on in class. the experiments are driving me crazy & all i do in the chem lab is sit down there & wait for my pretty partner to tell me what's going on (: ... okay... i did my part but i still don't understand.

Art's driving me crazy ... my sketches are all over my room & to be honest, i feel that it can be a dread to do art at times. it's all bout imagination & inspiration. i can't force art out of my head it comes naturally as & when i feeeeel like doing it. feeeeeeel like .

Last year, i ate a whole tube of toothpaste just to get fever but never worked.

Last year, ate lychee, longan & drank milk just to get a tummy ache but it never worked.

but, this year ... no more nonsense. After O levels, i'll burn my books & i'll throw all my pens into the sea! this is so ... stupid but i feel so crude today. ((: nicole.

ah well... i didn't get to meet baby today ... ): *looks down*

I hear my sister shouting:" i'm doing my ARRRRRRRRRRRT." oh my goodness... art.

YAs reality is crashing to the floor.

Paint a portrait of you & I-;

~~You get older & blame becomes to shame.~~
Would you still love me if i was spastic, crazy, mad or...whatever?

I love starbucks with bestfriends. i love my family, bestfriends, friends & i love my boyfriend.

I'd love to experience everything in life. Try whatever seems crazily fun or stupid.

I don't live life to the fullest sometimes but to me, life seems like a movie. Everything happens so fast, ends so fast but at the same time, there're so many people in life that you treasure & never want to leave. i've never been perfect in my life. never once. i've never done anything exceptionally good however, i've got the perfect friends in life. i've got a beautiful boyfriend & i thank God for everything i've came pass.

I can be very crude, retarded & stupid at times.

I'm a mean bitch, whore, cunt whatever you want to call me if you make my blood boil. I wouldn't acknowledge you on the streets if you did something to insult my friends & i. Infact, i'll probably hate you for life for what you did. Yes, very much HATE.

Chains;

Tender Words-;