Loosing my mind just to find a place in your mind.

Thursday, January 17, 2008

i can't reverse time, can't make the hands of the clock rotate in the opposite direction. what's gone is gone & it's sooner or later that i've to accept it. today was grand aunt's. Was also the first time i saw grandma cry. Also the first time i felt like as though i have to accept everything that came by my way. i guess, i felt it, i felt it when i was hit by granddad's death. Maybe, some people just get used to it that's why they dnt feel anything.

I need therapy. I was never that type who'll sit in class & NEVER fall aslp. However, today, i tried my very best to stay awake in every circumstance. I've got lots of work waiting for me. i've gt my art to start, i got my ss to finish. i've got so much things.

I don't feel like going for soccer tmr.

I miss you.

YAs reality is crashing to the floor.

Paint a portrait of you & I-;

~~You get older & blame becomes to shame.~~
Would you still love me if i was spastic, crazy, mad or...whatever?

I love starbucks with bestfriends. i love my family, bestfriends, friends & i love my boyfriend.

I'd love to experience everything in life. Try whatever seems crazily fun or stupid.

I don't live life to the fullest sometimes but to me, life seems like a movie. Everything happens so fast, ends so fast but at the same time, there're so many people in life that you treasure & never want to leave. i've never been perfect in my life. never once. i've never done anything exceptionally good however, i've got the perfect friends in life. i've got a beautiful boyfriend & i thank God for everything i've came pass.

I can be very crude, retarded & stupid at times.

I'm a mean bitch, whore, cunt whatever you want to call me if you make my blood boil. I wouldn't acknowledge you on the streets if you did something to insult my friends & i. Infact, i'll probably hate you for life for what you did. Yes, very much HATE.

Chains;

Tender Words-;