Loosing my mind just to find a place in your mind.

Wednesday, January 16, 2008

I'm going to lose weight, i'm going to work out three times a week, i'm going to plan my timetable, i'm going to study hard & i'm going to score well for my Os.

I'll promise not to sleep in class & i'll finish at least one book in two week's time. the raod narrows & everything enjoyable turns into history while all that i could see in my vision is: O levels. It's such a dread to attend sch every morning at such an hour. i hate it. i hate it to the very core. why? coz, i don't like early lonely long bus rides & i don't like that boy who disturbs me on the bus.

I've started to bring back my TYS home for revision. it's only jan & i could feel the pressure heating up my head. sometimes i feel so useless i feel that i'm unable accomplish anything. i know i can do it but, i feel lazy. i need motivation. can someone effing tell me to start studying or else, i will not be able to do my course after O levels!

YAs reality is crashing to the floor.

Paint a portrait of you & I-;

~~You get older & blame becomes to shame.~~
Would you still love me if i was spastic, crazy, mad or...whatever?

I love starbucks with bestfriends. i love my family, bestfriends, friends & i love my boyfriend.

I'd love to experience everything in life. Try whatever seems crazily fun or stupid.

I don't live life to the fullest sometimes but to me, life seems like a movie. Everything happens so fast, ends so fast but at the same time, there're so many people in life that you treasure & never want to leave. i've never been perfect in my life. never once. i've never done anything exceptionally good however, i've got the perfect friends in life. i've got a beautiful boyfriend & i thank God for everything i've came pass.

I can be very crude, retarded & stupid at times.

I'm a mean bitch, whore, cunt whatever you want to call me if you make my blood boil. I wouldn't acknowledge you on the streets if you did something to insult my friends & i. Infact, i'll probably hate you for life for what you did. Yes, very much HATE.

Chains;

Tender Words-;