Loosing my mind just to find a place in your mind.

Monday, January 07, 2008

The long sch hours got me dog tired & i couldn't help it when my eyes shut on me. I've gotta admit that i was so dog tired my brains weren't functioning well & i just texted someone i shouldn't have.

Retreat wasn't all that bad afterall. It got me thinking bout lots of things. Example: My best friends, someone, my ex boyfriend & all those who have made my life a whole lot better. Everything touched me for a reason & i cried. i cried so badly i felt like running out of wherever i was. i just feel like hugging someone & talking to soemone on how happy i am to have all of em in my life & how much i do not want them to leave.

Sometimes, everything tends to hurt me in a way or another. I don't know why i still run back to those things even thou it hurts. I guess, it's just the way how things work themselves out.

I've thought too deeply i;m loosing myself & i'm sinking in back to every memory of things that used to be.

I've been a lil too emo this few days & i feel very depressed. i don't know who can save me from me coz i do not want to die of depression. it's slowly suffocating me & i'm tired but, i still want to think of someone.

Best friends: thanks for being there all the time. i promise you all everything. I'm sorry i can't be happy all the time. I feel very tired of everything that's been going through my mind. you all know very well, what it is. I'm sorry if i hurt you in a way or anoher when im sad. Sometimes, i just can't help it. this year seems so tough & rough thou i said it's going to be fast. It's the begining of the year bt i feel that everything's slapping into my face. Thanks for being there for all this while. i love you.

love, nic.

YAs reality is crashing to the floor.

Paint a portrait of you & I-;

~~You get older & blame becomes to shame.~~
Would you still love me if i was spastic, crazy, mad or...whatever?

I love starbucks with bestfriends. i love my family, bestfriends, friends & i love my boyfriend.

I'd love to experience everything in life. Try whatever seems crazily fun or stupid.

I don't live life to the fullest sometimes but to me, life seems like a movie. Everything happens so fast, ends so fast but at the same time, there're so many people in life that you treasure & never want to leave. i've never been perfect in my life. never once. i've never done anything exceptionally good however, i've got the perfect friends in life. i've got a beautiful boyfriend & i thank God for everything i've came pass.

I can be very crude, retarded & stupid at times.

I'm a mean bitch, whore, cunt whatever you want to call me if you make my blood boil. I wouldn't acknowledge you on the streets if you did something to insult my friends & i. Infact, i'll probably hate you for life for what you did. Yes, very much HATE.

Chains;

Tender Words-;