Loosing my mind just to find a place in your mind.

Sunday, January 06, 2008

The odour of anti bacterium spray never smelt as horrible as ever & i've never walked into the hospital with such sadness. i was afraid, too afraid to see everything that was going on around me. Those blue uniforms & sad faces didn't help me lighten up either. Neither did the prescence of my sister.

The feebleness got me weak to the heart. Her cheerful & strong attitude helped me understand what's true happiness. I know i'll never be as strong as how she portrayed herself to be & i'm really proud to see her the way she was today thou part of me knows that somethings just gotta go.

I do not know what the future holds, all i know is, i've got great people around me, i've finally understood the true meaning of living today like it was the last day, i've finally realised why i shouldn't take things for granted. Grand dad's death taught me alot of things. Much more than what this world could show me.

i get so high at times & i get pretty low unpredictably. But one thing's for sure, there's someone who is capable of bringing me to cloud 9 even when i'm unhappy. There're times when i really do not know which way to go & sometimes i feel really flustered by every emotion that comes into me. But, thank you for being there.

Some questions come with answers like a package, some don't while others lay around in the grey parts of this world.

YAs reality is crashing to the floor.

Paint a portrait of you & I-;

~~You get older & blame becomes to shame.~~
Would you still love me if i was spastic, crazy, mad or...whatever?

I love starbucks with bestfriends. i love my family, bestfriends, friends & i love my boyfriend.

I'd love to experience everything in life. Try whatever seems crazily fun or stupid.

I don't live life to the fullest sometimes but to me, life seems like a movie. Everything happens so fast, ends so fast but at the same time, there're so many people in life that you treasure & never want to leave. i've never been perfect in my life. never once. i've never done anything exceptionally good however, i've got the perfect friends in life. i've got a beautiful boyfriend & i thank God for everything i've came pass.

I can be very crude, retarded & stupid at times.

I'm a mean bitch, whore, cunt whatever you want to call me if you make my blood boil. I wouldn't acknowledge you on the streets if you did something to insult my friends & i. Infact, i'll probably hate you for life for what you did. Yes, very much HATE.

Chains;

Tender Words-;