“take the first step & discover something much more worthwhile.”

I’ve been feeling rather worked up today although everything seemed to be fine. When I feel unhappy all I do is rent my anger & type out documents on how I feel at the moment. That somehow explains why my computer has a folder filled with word documents. I feel like breaking down now, I feel like crying & I feel like running into the arms of whoever who is kind enough to hear me out. I don’t know what has gotten into me. Today seemed rather fine when school started but, as the clock ticks & as time passes, I realized, I don’t feel all that right anymore. I feel, something’s bothering me & something in me is missing. I search but nothing seems to help either way.

It’s just abnormal to be happy everyday, sometimes I just wonder how dad can actually live in HK with so much work he has to finish. I wonder how it feels like to support a family. How does it feel like to be away from your loved ones? I don’t know. I just miss dad.

Maybe it’s my period. Maybe, it’s the stress that I feel on my shoulders or maybe, it’s the pressure they’ve put into me. I’ve come to the senses that everyone has flaws & nobody is perfect. There’s no way to run. No way to hide the flaws in us. Therefore, no matter what I do, I have to give my best & my best is everything I’ve got. No point pondering over unanswered questions.

I feel mood less.

something to be happy bout would have to be that bryan is back & he can contact val so they both can help me comment on my art work. yeah, everything seems to be bout o levels.

I’m cutting down on my food consumption & I’m going to step on the weighting machine with a smile on my face when I see my weight.

I love you boyfriend, I love you best friends.

they ask me why i bother & i answered. If i don't make things clear, things are just going to drag down further. so, Tim, i dn't think you deserve a sorry, like what i told you. i don't see the reason anymore & i'm shutting all doors. i seriously am. you don't deserve people to be nice to you when you take everything in this world for granted. F you bastard.