Loosing my mind just to find a place in your mind.

Friday, February 22, 2008

Fuck you.

It felt as though everything was engulfed by the darkness created by my mind. the imagery of what used to be slowly becomes vague as each day passes by. from a picture so clear, it turned into a blurry vision. I forgot the way you look, the way you acted infront of me &, everything about you was at the back of my mind. however, i still wished to bump into you in any ordinary day just to do some catching up. we used to be whatever we thought we used to be. So very wrong were we. Seeing through each other's eyes, we saw how we could be. another side of life. another side of happiness &, another side of the ugly truth. Nothing can be kept in the dark forever dearie, certainly not this matter. Everything'll be revealed at the end of the day. so quit trying to cover it up for your sake.

This week has been a rather long week. It made me a lil more cranky than every other but best friends & boyfriend made it much better. i've been wanting to lose weight finally i resisted the temptaion of eating during recess though awfully sinful cheese cake is stuck in my mouth now. It's really nice... like strawberry, cheese, mmmmmm.

i feel fat now even after my soccer trainning which drained alot of my energy.

sometimes it makes me happy other times it upsets me but for today, it really annoyed me. tell me what can i do bout it.

YAs reality is crashing to the floor.

Paint a portrait of you & I-;

~~You get older & blame becomes to shame.~~
Would you still love me if i was spastic, crazy, mad or...whatever?

I love starbucks with bestfriends. i love my family, bestfriends, friends & i love my boyfriend.

I'd love to experience everything in life. Try whatever seems crazily fun or stupid.

I don't live life to the fullest sometimes but to me, life seems like a movie. Everything happens so fast, ends so fast but at the same time, there're so many people in life that you treasure & never want to leave. i've never been perfect in my life. never once. i've never done anything exceptionally good however, i've got the perfect friends in life. i've got a beautiful boyfriend & i thank God for everything i've came pass.

I can be very crude, retarded & stupid at times.

I'm a mean bitch, whore, cunt whatever you want to call me if you make my blood boil. I wouldn't acknowledge you on the streets if you did something to insult my friends & i. Infact, i'll probably hate you for life for what you did. Yes, very much HATE.

Chains;

Tender Words-;