Loosing my mind just to find a place in your mind.

Wednesday, February 06, 2008

it isn't all that wise to wear a black outfit for reunion dinner but i did it anyway finishing it with a black beanie.

I slept on the sofa with the damn book slapped on my face ytd night however, nothing stopped me from attending school. The only reason i went to school was because i would be spending time with voldie & baby.

I'm not changed into my pajamas...yet. i have not wash up . i have not recieve any text from voldie on her getting home safely. &... of course, i feel very sleepy now.

sometimes, i look through everything & i start to ask myself why... why did i go through fuck when it wasn't even meant for us. Why the eff did i even reply you? & i felt myself squashed up in the shoulders of the past. Yes, it was rather stupid. Yes, we didn't have to go through all that trouble when we could have just left it all alone. No, it hasn't left my mind on whatever that has happened coz someday i know someone will have to pay back all that fuck that happened. I don't hold a grudge against anything but i just never understood why that shit happened for no reasons. it could have been avoided. i could have been smarter. i could have known it ealier. but how the fuck did i manage to hang on till the very end & still think that you were honest & a nice whatever?

I hate you. i hate you like a mother who hates the rappist who raped her child. I don't know why i thought of that... but yeah, seriously. looking at it just makes me hate you more. OOOOH. no ... You knew what you did. you knew it very very well. nobody knows it as well as you yourself do. i mean, you lied... you could have lied every other time. We all thought it was true, whatever lie you told. I , they, everyone who knew us thought it was true but NOoooooo. never was it true.

go suck dicks for life & get show that fucking pussy in you. you cunt.

YAs reality is crashing to the floor.

Paint a portrait of you & I-;

~~You get older & blame becomes to shame.~~
Would you still love me if i was spastic, crazy, mad or...whatever?

I love starbucks with bestfriends. i love my family, bestfriends, friends & i love my boyfriend.

I'd love to experience everything in life. Try whatever seems crazily fun or stupid.

I don't live life to the fullest sometimes but to me, life seems like a movie. Everything happens so fast, ends so fast but at the same time, there're so many people in life that you treasure & never want to leave. i've never been perfect in my life. never once. i've never done anything exceptionally good however, i've got the perfect friends in life. i've got a beautiful boyfriend & i thank God for everything i've came pass.

I can be very crude, retarded & stupid at times.

I'm a mean bitch, whore, cunt whatever you want to call me if you make my blood boil. I wouldn't acknowledge you on the streets if you did something to insult my friends & i. Infact, i'll probably hate you for life for what you did. Yes, very much HATE.

Chains;

Tender Words-;