Loosing my mind just to find a place in your mind.

Tuesday, February 19, 2008

The night grew older but nothing changed. Still the same imprints of shades black & white fading off that thin white sheet of paper. Nothing has been gotten off that heavy load of homework that's been assigned. 30 sketches still on the shelf, not taken off. Many things ran through that agony of mind but nothing seemed to be solved till this morning when it decided to run to the back of my mind.

i curled up in bed with his voice on the telephone but not long after i fell into deep sleep however, was awaken by a pressure that felt so real. hoping that it was just me & nothing else. After that.... i remembered nothing... i was too tired to educe anything out of me anyway.

Something just fucked up but seriously, there's nothing i can possibly do + it's not a matter anyone wants to pick on bout neither isit anything important.It's just one of those days you get your hair done, stick a smile on & then, you realise everything's going to go downhill just coz monday wasn't doing too well. Your voice makes my day + hugging a teddy+ no school or classes + late night talks &, of course, LAZY MORNINGS. Fk whatever tha's going to come after my CA.... i can't wait to get out of wherever i am, start to do crazy things & live my lazy life. Needs rest, unable to cop anymore. skip a heart beat when you see your papers flying back at your direction. i hate tests & i def nevr believed it'll define how much one understand something. hell, there's revision to be done. ooooooh no ): ...

cereals goes with milk & i'm drinking milk for once since a long time.

Who wants to watch vantage point with me?

YAs reality is crashing to the floor.

Paint a portrait of you & I-;

~~You get older & blame becomes to shame.~~
Would you still love me if i was spastic, crazy, mad or...whatever?

I love starbucks with bestfriends. i love my family, bestfriends, friends & i love my boyfriend.

I'd love to experience everything in life. Try whatever seems crazily fun or stupid.

I don't live life to the fullest sometimes but to me, life seems like a movie. Everything happens so fast, ends so fast but at the same time, there're so many people in life that you treasure & never want to leave. i've never been perfect in my life. never once. i've never done anything exceptionally good however, i've got the perfect friends in life. i've got a beautiful boyfriend & i thank God for everything i've came pass.

I can be very crude, retarded & stupid at times.

I'm a mean bitch, whore, cunt whatever you want to call me if you make my blood boil. I wouldn't acknowledge you on the streets if you did something to insult my friends & i. Infact, i'll probably hate you for life for what you did. Yes, very much HATE.

Chains;

Tender Words-;