Loosing my mind just to find a place in your mind.

Wednesday, February 20, 2008

She came into my open arms just for a thrill. Just for a comfort. Like a child, she cried & said it hurt a little too much for her to withstand whatever that's physically & mentally painful. It felt as thou i feel how she felt yet i was startled when tears kept rolling down that pretty face. It's been years since i've seen her cry. Weeks, or even months, since i've held her the way i did in moments ago.

There wasn't much anyone could do. & i knew very well nothing/ nobody would ever understand the pain that's been crawling beneath her skin. Even when i say i feel how she felt, it was jsut merely what i've went through. It may differ... The tears never stopped till the younger one came to ask if everything was okay. walking out the room with guilt that grew in me for being unable to spend enough time with her stained my blood & i found myself having thoughts that went a lil too far.

A mother has always been important in part of a child's life. For her to be someone so great whom i look up to, i understood very well nobody will replace the position she stood in my heart. All these years. Till now even... & i believe, very strongly, all my life, nobody can take that position of her's away from my heart, soul, mind.

YAs reality is crashing to the floor.

Paint a portrait of you & I-;

~~You get older & blame becomes to shame.~~
Would you still love me if i was spastic, crazy, mad or...whatever?

I love starbucks with bestfriends. i love my family, bestfriends, friends & i love my boyfriend.

I'd love to experience everything in life. Try whatever seems crazily fun or stupid.

I don't live life to the fullest sometimes but to me, life seems like a movie. Everything happens so fast, ends so fast but at the same time, there're so many people in life that you treasure & never want to leave. i've never been perfect in my life. never once. i've never done anything exceptionally good however, i've got the perfect friends in life. i've got a beautiful boyfriend & i thank God for everything i've came pass.

I can be very crude, retarded & stupid at times.

I'm a mean bitch, whore, cunt whatever you want to call me if you make my blood boil. I wouldn't acknowledge you on the streets if you did something to insult my friends & i. Infact, i'll probably hate you for life for what you did. Yes, very much HATE.

Chains;

Tender Words-;