Loosing my mind just to find a place in your mind.

Thursday, February 21, 2008

The tension built up behind me & that heart beat kept beating harder every second. i couldn't deny the fact that i was lucky when the bell went on me & i was saved by the fact that i had a lil more time to complete what i have yet to finish. + 13 more sketches. i'd cry & scream when i get home if he ever laid his fingers to tear those sketches i did. 23 sketches & some are going down the drain, that's a fact. How would you feel if you spent hours doing those 23 sketches but in a few minutes, it's all found in the waste. Not whole but bits and pieces.

Thursday was never known as the best day of the week yet some public strangers just have to stick their nosy attitude into situations that never bothered them. "can you lower down your volume? i'm really amazed!" amazed with WHAT? amazed with me having the ability to actually listen to full blast music early in the morning on the way to sch(?) It's a public transport for goodness sake & everyone has their free will to do whatever they want to... I'd understand if she was aslp & was awaken by me but, she was wide awake like an owl. I thought it was going to get better as the morning sun rises & breaks through from the darkness of the sky. i was so very wrong. Instead of having it better, it just got worst. worst than ever.

"What you said was crude enough to make me feel lower than ever."

YAs reality is crashing to the floor.

Paint a portrait of you & I-;

~~You get older & blame becomes to shame.~~
Would you still love me if i was spastic, crazy, mad or...whatever?

I love starbucks with bestfriends. i love my family, bestfriends, friends & i love my boyfriend.

I'd love to experience everything in life. Try whatever seems crazily fun or stupid.

I don't live life to the fullest sometimes but to me, life seems like a movie. Everything happens so fast, ends so fast but at the same time, there're so many people in life that you treasure & never want to leave. i've never been perfect in my life. never once. i've never done anything exceptionally good however, i've got the perfect friends in life. i've got a beautiful boyfriend & i thank God for everything i've came pass.

I can be very crude, retarded & stupid at times.

I'm a mean bitch, whore, cunt whatever you want to call me if you make my blood boil. I wouldn't acknowledge you on the streets if you did something to insult my friends & i. Infact, i'll probably hate you for life for what you did. Yes, very much HATE.

Chains;

Tender Words-;