Loosing my mind just to find a place in your mind.

Monday, March 31, 2008

"Haven't you always thought of leaving school? haven't you be looking forward to the last days of this year since the day you stepped into that school 3 years back? Haven't you always told yourself you'll study hard & get outta this shit as soon as possible? What happened to the enthusiasm?"

I forgot to remember the touch of books. It's time to sit down right infront of the study table & pick up the books that has been lying on the floor for what seems like years. I never had such a hard hit till today when i finally realize nobody actually bothers because they're too used to the opinion of me failing every school year.

This year's diffirent. This year's going to determine where i'm gonna end up in life. Yes, there may be much more important things than just sitting for a few sheets of paper that'll determine your future. But, in society, who cares if you could do hands on very well without a qualification? To be honest, no one would.

Suddenly, i feel petrified by the limited amount of time before my major exams approach. I want to do well & i have to do well. i can't fail anymore...

The moods that has been affecting me these few days hasn't been smooth. & i change my moods in a snap of my fingers. i hate it. i hate to feel the way i actually feel. Ain't it sad every woman is bound to suffer from something like that where else the man just sits down & resound bout how unreasonable we can be(?) Lucky i don't have someone who actually flares up at me, like( fill in the blank) when i'm in a bad mood. Thanks for being so understanding... (:

It feels like forever that you've been here with me. ily. Y

YAs reality is crashing to the floor.

Paint a portrait of you & I-;

~~You get older & blame becomes to shame.~~
Would you still love me if i was spastic, crazy, mad or...whatever?

I love starbucks with bestfriends. i love my family, bestfriends, friends & i love my boyfriend.

I'd love to experience everything in life. Try whatever seems crazily fun or stupid.

I don't live life to the fullest sometimes but to me, life seems like a movie. Everything happens so fast, ends so fast but at the same time, there're so many people in life that you treasure & never want to leave. i've never been perfect in my life. never once. i've never done anything exceptionally good however, i've got the perfect friends in life. i've got a beautiful boyfriend & i thank God for everything i've came pass.

I can be very crude, retarded & stupid at times.

I'm a mean bitch, whore, cunt whatever you want to call me if you make my blood boil. I wouldn't acknowledge you on the streets if you did something to insult my friends & i. Infact, i'll probably hate you for life for what you did. Yes, very much HATE.

Chains;

Tender Words-;