Loosing my mind just to find a place in your mind.

Friday, March 07, 2008

"hey jude, dn't be afraid..."

Friday's here & i spent my school day runnig my 2.4km ... it's been a long time since i've completed my run. simply because everytime when we have our P.E. periods, best friend & i will probably be walking at the end of the running crowd. They'll be running like mad cows while we walk & talk & laugh. Sorry, my lungs aren't made for running. Okay, bullshit. i ran i ran like a mad bitch without stopping.

I anticipated all my CA1 results. It's either a "just pass" or... a fail. This year's a different case. Bullshit talks aren't just talks anymore. I studied for various subjects but i guess i never put in enough effort for most of them. I passed all except for one & that very sunject used to be a strong subject for me. What happened nic, what happened? 2 more months to MT's O levels. a few more months, the tortures over. I know there's no more time to waste. & i know very well that i have to start studying now. however the motivation isn't there, it dies away in weeks to come. Although i've been listening in class, i haven't been taking in much of it & i never brought any sch books home to revise for the past term. This probably explains where i stand now.

Tmr's parent meeting session will be fucked up, i know. Conferences with teachers & parents is a good time for them to pick your fucking faults out so your mother/father would be aware of it. & mine will be never ending. haven't been performing well for this term. My restuls are fucked, (not like as if it wasn't fucked in the very first place but... yeah), My attendance for my CCA's also fucked. attendance's Fairly fucked. hmm, so, tell me, tell me what good too place in this one term? I'm going to sit in class calmly inorder to let my teacher fuck everything up to my mother & then, after everything, Mum will just tell me to study hard. Coz she couldn't be bothered to whoever she'll be talking to tmr...

I have to complete my math now.

Remember, all this will pay off for the rest of your life.

I'm going to miss you when you're at bintan.

Labels: the late night calls

YAs reality is crashing to the floor.

Paint a portrait of you & I-;

~~You get older & blame becomes to shame.~~
Would you still love me if i was spastic, crazy, mad or...whatever?

I love starbucks with bestfriends. i love my family, bestfriends, friends & i love my boyfriend.

I'd love to experience everything in life. Try whatever seems crazily fun or stupid.

I don't live life to the fullest sometimes but to me, life seems like a movie. Everything happens so fast, ends so fast but at the same time, there're so many people in life that you treasure & never want to leave. i've never been perfect in my life. never once. i've never done anything exceptionally good however, i've got the perfect friends in life. i've got a beautiful boyfriend & i thank God for everything i've came pass.

I can be very crude, retarded & stupid at times.

I'm a mean bitch, whore, cunt whatever you want to call me if you make my blood boil. I wouldn't acknowledge you on the streets if you did something to insult my friends & i. Infact, i'll probably hate you for life for what you did. Yes, very much HATE.

Chains;

Tender Words-;