"I got so caught up with my teenage life that i forgot how i used to be when i was a lil younger."

I miss the "family" i used to call when i was younger. It was just us, us & nothing more.It was back when i knew everything's gonna be alright because you both assured me even if the world fell apart, you'll be there to stand by me. If i ever hid under the cozy lil blanket to cry over whatever seems to be the reason, you both would hide under it with me & speak those words to me;"everything's gonna be alright". I miss those days, mum, dad. As we grew older, both you & i, the family story of us became complicating. The lil fights & areguments gradually covered up the happy times we all had. Then, we forget where we stand in each other's heart. Even if those childhood days of mine seemed too vague for you to reminiscent, my love for you, both, has never grew lesser. this 16 years has been wonderful & i want you to know if it wasn't for the both of you, i wouldn't have such a pretty life now. thanks for standing by me. thanks for protecting me from everything in this world. I miss those hands that used to embrace me & that mouth which used to tell me how much you love me. you may not feel the need to anymore coz you probably think you've register everything into my mind already. However, i have to admit that I'm still that lil girl you've always known. I'm still that nicole who used to chase frogs in sentosa & sing barney's songs on the telephone. i still need you both around. I really do. so please, please don't ever go. Coz i really wouldn't know what am i gonna do if you both were to go without me.

Don't you miss those days too? Can we have another family dinner again? Can you tell me how much you love me? or even hug me & cry with me?

I've packed my drawers, i've packed my room. Sometimes, it really makes me think of how i used to be when i was younger. I read past letters my best friends gave me. funny isn't it? So many years have past but the memories still stayed. Reading those letters gave me a taste of how it was then. i remembered lots of things i didn't manage to remember. & i love it. when it comes to memories, you wouldn't dare admit that there's no bad ones, do you? i still had tim's letter surprisingly, funny. Should i thank you for making me dislike you so much? You were nice, till you fucked it all. (: