Loosing my mind just to find a place in your mind.

Monday, March 03, 2008

Mondays are very well known for Monday blues. Definitely today was one of those days. the accumulated inactivity of these cold rainy days has gotten on to me lately. i've adapted it so much so that i'm able to fall asleep any time of the day. Some find it disgustingly unacceptable but some just live with it. Who doesn't need sleep anyway? It's better to be able to fall asleep anytime than to have insomnia...

I'm pretty comfortable with the life i'm going through at the moment. Despite the importance of upcoming major exams, i am still engulfed with laziness. Like i've told some of my friends . " it's one of those i-dnt-want-to-study days" Then again, everyday is one of those days. it took me some time to register the fact & importance of having a good foundation for last year's syllabus yet i'm not doing anything bout it yet. i think my brain's still digesting those information.

The tempetation of ordering macdonalds is so irresistable but the weighting maching in my toilet is stopping me. i'm trying to control myself only after i found myself clearing the junk food at home. accomplished isn't it? Even my mum says i eat more than her... Periods mum, periods.

Last two days were with family & best friends. Boyfriend who was unable to make it for either day took the effort to travel frm home to my place. iloveyoutothemax!

I can't deny the fact that i've enjoyed myself over those two days. i had heart to heart talks with best friend & my parents. Heart to heart talk makes me feel the importance of communication & i have to admit that i've learnt alot from my parents lately. i haven't been having a good relationship with dad since the day he found me doing something he thought i'd never do. But i guess it's just a vivid yet vague memory afterall.

MY eyes are shutting on me... my art works are lying on my bedroom floor. my stereo's blasted while my television is on with the stereo over taking the voices of each actor in the television.

coffee, anyone? Yes, at this time of the night.

Labels: This is family.

YAs reality is crashing to the floor.

Paint a portrait of you & I-;

~~You get older & blame becomes to shame.~~
Would you still love me if i was spastic, crazy, mad or...whatever?

I love starbucks with bestfriends. i love my family, bestfriends, friends & i love my boyfriend.

I'd love to experience everything in life. Try whatever seems crazily fun or stupid.

I don't live life to the fullest sometimes but to me, life seems like a movie. Everything happens so fast, ends so fast but at the same time, there're so many people in life that you treasure & never want to leave. i've never been perfect in my life. never once. i've never done anything exceptionally good however, i've got the perfect friends in life. i've got a beautiful boyfriend & i thank God for everything i've came pass.

I can be very crude, retarded & stupid at times.

I'm a mean bitch, whore, cunt whatever you want to call me if you make my blood boil. I wouldn't acknowledge you on the streets if you did something to insult my friends & i. Infact, i'll probably hate you for life for what you did. Yes, very much HATE.

Chains;

Tender Words-;